So, I've been working for a week and one day, and had an insanely busy weekend, and I am TIRED! I don't wanna go to work tomorrow.
I started out very well, feeling all organised. Lots of meals prepared in advance, house clean, stuff like that. I had energy enough still at the end of the day to do what I had to do. But after a hectic weekend (with a later night than I've had in yonks), things being flat out at work and increasingly interupted sleep, I think I'm ready for a break. Good thing it's only a four day week!
Cooper has been starting to get a bit upset with me leaving him, which makes me feel terrible. He was up every two hours last night, just wanting to hang out on my boob. I left him for 4 hours for my first job, fed him at 1pm then dropped him off at mum's for the afternoon job. He has refused milk since then - almost 9 hours and counting. He's asleep on his dad now... we'll see if he'll do a dream feed or be wanting to feed during the night, but I'm wondering if he has decided that since I've dumped him so much, he is gonna dump me.
My boob feels fine... by now I'd think I'd be feeling tight, which makes me wonder if my milk has dried up. I feel a bit bad ... like I put work in front of my bubba's needs. But I suppose 9 months isn't too bad. My goal was minimum 6 months but hopefully 12. I suppose splitting the difference is ok. And hey, he might feed all night again!
Time to pack the lunches... morning will come around soon enough!
Well, perhaps it was just a short-lived protest...I gave him a dream feed (You won't take your milk, child? Well I'll sneak it in when you're asleep! Mwahahaha!) and when he woke during the night and this morning he was happy to go back on.
ReplyDeleteOh, and he didn't wake so often last night, so I think I feel ok about going to work today after all! (Although I'm still sad about leaving him.)
Hope it's a good day for you, VianaBanana! *hugs*
ReplyDeletemaybe he was just too worn out by grandma!! Awesome work mum xoxo
ReplyDeletePerservere with work...it will make you appreciate being home more!!
ReplyDeleteTrue, but I don't think I'm ready for this many hours yet... or should I say, Cooper isn't ready! I am so sore from having to hold and carry him so much when I get home. He is even starting to get upset when ANY of his carer's (Dad, G'ma, Nan) leave him now... even when I or other loved ones are still right there in the room with him! Ultra clingy!! Glad this stint is just 4 wks, and thinking that maybe one day a week would have been a better way to start!
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